Two souls. Two eyes. Two minds.
He is always there for you, holding you up.
Listening without sighing or rolling his eyes at you. Your best friend.
Just there without any words, but comforting more than from those with words.
Animals has always been a big part of my adult life. They have always been there for me, they never betrayed me.
Without any expectations or demands.
In their moment I can be me and breathe.
Together in the nature it is a higher experience, the birds singing, butterflies flying around, colors sparkling around with a touch of the sun.
I was being told that if you spend a lot of time in the nature it lowers the risk of being exposed by cancer!
One thing I know for sure, is that i become very different, –in a good way, –being surrounded by horses and nature.
Calm and thankful.
Sometimes my days can be stressful, or I am very sad. I hurry to the stable when I get the chance, and after only five minutes, have I landed in myself.
This is why it’s not difficult for me rescuing horses.
It’s my way of saying, thank you!
This is beautiful Julia, a former Polo horse we truly would like to give a wonderful retirement too.
She is 16 years old and have worked so hard teaching us people about the sport.
Julia has been there every day. Now we would like to give thanks back.
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As many of you already know, Max is back in school after nearly two years of being homeschooled.
He loves school. Especially his teacher from the first day.
Max was very upset for days about the hitting from a boy and being blamed. He didn’t want to go to school if that pupil didn’t get expelled! I have never seen him that upset before and my mother heart ached.
The next morning in the car we did as we always did, our thanks and prayers. However, Max looked smaller in the front seat than normal.
My mom heart sang the prayers, and especially for courage in his little heart. I said it twice. Courage please!
Later that afternoon I went to pick him up outside school. I see his big smile far away. He is waving with a paper in his hand.
He was awarded the diploma for COURAGE!
Ones up on a time, a relative told me when he got cancer, the whole family got “cancer”. First he didn’t realise it, but a sign with those words in the doctors waiting room made him think deeper about it. Of course, he told me, there is not one family that reacts the same as another one, but pretty close. His whole family crashed into depression, a big change knocked on their door. Would they survive the cancer and marriage?
It made me think. My whole family had been infected by depression, in different stages of course. I always disliked the word depression. But my son (10y) said, “I have sadness in my heart that affects my brain.” He is the smart one –like children always are.
Family depression can also become a blaming cause. Who’s fault is it? Who will need the treatment(s)?
Everyone need treatments not only one family member, everyone gets infected.
Depression/Sadness is contagious, I believe. Some families become stronger after treatment/coaching –we all are responsible in one way or another. However, it is not about who is the worst (blame calling). Other families breaks apart, some members don’t want to deal with it. “Its nothing wrong with me! If you only change, everything will become better.”
Depressions can become ugly if not taken cared off. Ten months ago I fell down into a deep dark whole. I swam in a dark ocean. I couldn’t see anything, only my thoughts were pounding inside my head.
My family were swimming, still we couldn’t see each other. We couldn’t even see the light since we kept looking down. We felt our presens, yet we couldn’t reach each others hands. We were occupied trying to save ourselves from drowning.
Then one day, something triggered me to lift the phone and call for help. The Animals were always there for me as healers. Animals are always in the moment, patient and loving (In the same way I would imagine God) We humans complicates it for each others, and many times for ourselves. That is why we need a human to talk too, to sort out all the fals feelings and beliefs we have told ourselves, or trusted what others had said about us. Maybe old believes that are no longer true.
I broke the pattern in our family, and it was a painful journey, and still is in another way. Nevertheless, even if its painful, I feel like I am now swimming above the surface. Still peddling with my feet like a duke. Trying to get my family up to the surface, and guide them to the best qualified helpers I can find. Now, that was another puzzle, being from one country, living in another nationality, in another country. A language I didn’t even speak.
Thats where I love and adore children. They want help. They understand. They want their parents to be helped.
Many tells me, I am very strong. person. How do you measure strength?
Life passes on so quickly. I spoke to several elderly people, and many of them told me the same, ” If I only would have dared more. Fear and shame and regret made me not dare.” (dare to break an old marriage, dare starting something new, dare talking about feelings, showing feeling etc)
I can relate to that. For several years I felt the same, and hid behind the walls were no one could see me crying. Only together with my children, and animals, did I feel something different. Now my soul told me I had to start searching for my answers deep inside of me. Peal the layers off.
I started to surround myself with a new kind of energy, mentors, and love. And started to say good bye and say thanks to the old ones. I thanked them, since they had been my mentors to whom I had become (in good and bad) To show anger towards them who left me wouldn’t help. They left to make room for new teachers arrival.
Learn from Nature!
I am feeling so blessed to have our horses at Hirschof (Southern Germany) Every day I go there I can breath and slow down.
Horses are reading us faster than we are trying to describe ourselves to someone.